We Love the Rain!

I just got home from my 6th treatment. Today it went well, no throwing up in front of everyone, that's always a bonus. Although I have had several treatments it is always difficult for me to see everyone else. Some of the people are better off then you and others are A LOT worse then you. I visit them, get to know their life stories, and get somewhat attached. I lose a few tears every time I go looking around the room noticing everyone else. Some sleep through their treatments, others read or visit. Some are positive and don't look real sick, others you wonder if they are going to make it out of their chair. It's so surreal for me.

This last treatment did not make me as sick. I am so happy, excited, grateful, and can't wait until I have more energy to do more.

This past week was busy my little 9yr old was on his motorcycle riding when another rider accidentally ran into him. He ended up having to have surgery. He tore his ACL and it pulled a piece of bone from another. He should heal fine and not have any long lasting effects. However, in the mean time he has become really bossy because he is still lacking in mobility. I do have to say sometimes I feel like when it rains, it pours, in are family. But I guess its good we love the rain!

No Marathons Yet!

It's a good day! I appreciate Tracy's comments on my blog, that was a great description of how I feel most days. I have felt good the last few days and pray that the rest of my treatments will go as well. Don't get me wrong I won't be running any marathons anytime soon. I might make it down Chapel Way one of these days. But I haven't thrown up since my last treatment and that is a huge improvement.
Today I am grateful for
medications
sunshine

laughter
chocolate
hugs from my children
the few eyelashes I have left

Happy Valentines

I like this clip from Pres. Monson and thought it was appropriate at this time since it's Valentines. You have all been great examples on how to show love. I want to tell you ALL, thanks for showing me so much love. I have learned so much through all of you on how to love.Through messages on the blog, on my e-mail, phone calls, gifts, dinners brought in, cleaning my house, cards, stopping by to visit and the list goes on. I hope I can show you the love back.
Yesterday I had my 5Th chemo treatment. I was very sick while receiving the chemo. There was a man sitting by me that I am sure he wished he wasn't. I couldn't keep one thing down but I couldn't get up go to the bathroom since I was hooked to my IV so everyone in the room gets to witness me losing everything. but I feel so much better today.This type of chemo doesn't have the side effects of nausea like the last 4. I am excited! I will still have other side effects like the achy bones and a few others that I know you do not want to know about. I have to say on the days I feel good I sure appreciate it.
I hope you all have a wonderful Valentines weekend and don't forget to show the love.

No Regrets,

I've made it half way!

It's now been 7 days since my last treatment, thank goodness! The further away from the treatment the better I feel. I sound like a broken record but I have felt the same these last few treatment's. BUT, for the good news I am half way done I have 2 more months to go and the next treatment they change my chemo. The side effects should be different and I shouldn't be as nauseous. I tried to get my Dr. to make a bet with me that I really won't be as sick but he wouldn't, not even for a milkshake?
This last treatment I walked into the building and the smell set me off. I ended up being in the restroom until my chemo started. There is a name for what was happening my Dr. called it something, sorry I can't remember. He said he still has patients 5 years later that can't walk in the building without losing it. I was so mad that it was happening to me. I told the Dr. I was prepared for being sick after my treatment not before. I have to admit I was alittle emotional and instead of greeting him with a smile and saying"I'm great! when he walked in the room I was crying like a baby and saying "can't I get just a little break"(just 2 hours is all I want)that way I would be home looking in my own toilet not someone Else's. My poor Dr. has never seem me so upset but by the time I walked out I had pulled it together. And I was and am fine now. My emotion was more anger that day. Thank goodness for chemo brain I can't remember much from one hour to the next.The upside, it makes it easier to get over things.
My sister-in-law Jen came down for 5 days what a blessing she watched my children,cleaned and did laundry. I owe her big time. My kids love her and it's nice to know they are taken care of. She took them for bike rides and to the park and just loved them, they love every minute with her. Thanks!
I hope you all enjoy your day, Thanks for all your support!

Here is a quote that was given to me by my cousin that I like-
Cancer is so limited
It cannot cripple Love
It cannot shatter Hope
It cannot corrode Faith
It cannot destroy People
It cannot kill Friendship
It cannot suppress Memories
It cannot silence Courage
It cannot invade the Soul
It cannot steal eternal Life
It cannot conquer the Spirit