What's Your Hobby?

Yesterday I went in to Joann's looking for some materials I needed for Activity days.
Well I might as well
been in a foreign country. I walked down each
aisle
slowly looking at everything. I see all different kinds of material,
needlepoint
(stuff), crotcheting yarn, knitting materials, ribbons,
scrapbook paper,
stamps, wooden boxes, paints, etc...I notice my heart
is
beating faster and I am
getting really hot, struggling to catch my
breath,
thinking to myself this store
is killing me. As I am trying to
breathe and
as I am talking to myself saying
and "you thought you were
crafty just
because you made a skirt 2o yrs ago in
Home Ec. well I think
Its time I
learn a new hobby." As I am saying
this I turn
the corner and low
and behold their sits a new sewing machine
that says
its for beginners. I
thought well maybe I should buy it and learn to sew. I read everything on
the box and then the thought comes to my mind
wait.......... I thought I was
going to learn more about my computer and how
it works and
how I can scrap
book on my computer. (I'm sure I don't have
time for
both). So I leave
the store without the sewing
machine ready to go
home and get back on
the computer and learn how
it really works. I decide
I will find some
relaxing hobby after I
am a expert on the computer. I am
driving home
excited thinking well
learning computer skills can be my new hobby and then
wait.....I remembered
that I was going to start focusing on sending
thank
you cards to so many
people from this past year and I was going to be organized
and remember
peoples b-days and just let them know I was thinking of them,
and
then I
thought no I was going to start focusing on cooking better, finding new recipes, so I could provide really healthy but good meals for my family and friends. Oh wait.....
I thought I was going to start taking more pictures and learn how my camera really works.
But then I get home put my comfy
pj's on
and thought to myself I know I was going to do something but I
can't
remember so
I crawled in my comfortable bed that was calling
my name
and fell
asleep.

This is the story of my
life. This is the honest truth of my thoughts today. Crazy I know!
And I don't like the outline of my blog but can't figure out how to change it. Maybe I should focus on my computer skills.

Just Another Day!

Today I spent the day at the hospital with Rudy. He had his screw taken out of his knee. It was the same place I had all my surgeries the past year. It was nice not being the one going in for another surgery but yet I felt guilty it was my little boy. He was not even nervous. He said "mom it's just how I feel about school, I don't want to go but I know I have to". He then smiled at me as the nurses wheeled him away.



Two hours later Dr. P came out and said Rudys knee looked great except his tendon was really stretched and he was throwing up and struggling to wake up. But overall everything went well. He said a nurse would be out in 20 min. to get me....



An hour went by and the nurse finally came to get me. She said Rudy was having a hard time waking up. He seemed to have some kind of allergic reaction, his eyes were swollen, throwing up and basically looked horrible. So to get to my point we had to stay another 3 hrs in a room to watch his condition improve. Once he improved we finally left. What a long day.



My husband was gone and missed the whole thing. Actually.... He just walked in as I'm typing from being in Canada( hunting). He thought he would be home 3 days ago but due to flight problems he couldn't make it.



I don't want to brag but I held down the old homestead quite well without him. Of course it helps not having to go to some kind of job. Ha ha

The Vacations Are Over!

Rudy on boogie board
Kalen, Savannah, Asia, Kylie

Savannah running in the kids relays
Rudy running in relay, took 1st, Yeah!

Grandma & Asia swimming

Kylie & Avrie canoeing

Kylie & Avrie shopping at Country Store

Rudy, Matt, Grandpa and Savannah fishing

Savannah & Jemma


Well we are now home from our reunions. We had a blast! Its's fun to watch your kids play with their cousins and get along.

I do have to say that I went to both reunions without my husband. He has been gone hunting in Canada for 20 days. I was tired but not as tired as I thought I would be. I was worried not having my husbands help with the kids and pulling the camp trailor but we managed. Although we did miss him.

So now we are home and back to cleaning and doing lots of laundry, Yeah!

Yesterday I went to Dr. K whom I also love. I love Dr's that actually spend time talking to you. He was checking to see what damage the radiation had done to my skin and my implants and they weren't bad(he was surprized)he said he has seen women 2yrs later that there skin had not gone back to normal above and under the skin. So I was happy.

I hope you all are enjoying your summer becauseeee school is just around the corner, dang it!

On The Road Again!

My trip to California with my Reber Clan was a blast! Thank you, Thank you! Everything turned out so nice. It was so fun visiting with so many of you and I loveddddddd the food. I need to get a few recipes from all of you. We missed those of you that couldn't attend and I'm sure we talked about you(in a good way).

My kids loved the beach. It's amazing how much kids love water. They didn't want to leave. It's fun watching the kids play with their cousins laughing and having a good time.


Tomorrow I am leaving for another family reunion on my dads side. We have been getting ready all day. I am so lucky to be able to play so much.

Today I went to see my favorite Doctor Dr. H. Everything looks great! The only down side is my bones still don't look to strong so I am getting more medication. I also will start Femara(sp?).
It is a estrogen blocker. I will take that for the next 10 years.

There are so many people getting cancer. It is so scary. I am so blessed to have gone through this year and have it end this way. I appreciate all your prayers.


I was thinking of ending my blog after today, since I got the fantastic news that I am cancer FREEEEEEEE! I then decided to keep writing until the date I was diagnosed with cancer. If I had to write about my daily life it would be quite boring. I wish I was a good writer, I am amazed at some of the blogs that people write. I have to admit it has been very therapeutic writing and hearing your comments. Thanks for all your love and support.

Vacation Time!

I am off to California! We are going there for a family reunion. We are so excited my kids have been packed for days. They can't wait to play with cousins and have fun in the sun playing on the beach. It will be nice to get out of the heat, yesterday was 109. That is hot!

I will return from our trip in time to head back to one of my favorite Dr's, Dr.H. on Monday. I will have more blood tests, go over my last test results and then start on hormonal drugs to keep all estrogen out of my system, I think? How exciting?

This is my first week I haven't had to head to St. George for a Dr's. Appointment. It has been fannnntastic! I feel like I have been able to do so much more with my kids and of course have alittle more cleaning time.

Hope you all are having a fun summer!

No More Radiation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited yesterday was my last radiation treatment. I went in feeling giddy, I just kept smiling. All the nurses and other patients were sharing in the excitement with me, I loved it. I laid on the table just looking at the beam so excited I was done. When I was getting ready to go, everyone gave me hugs and told me how much they will miss me. I then went in to visit the Dr., and he told me everything looks great. We visited for awhile talking about the past year and as we were walking out he gave me a big hug. He told me I was done! All the steps I took this past year to get to this point are done, no more major steps to take. I started crying like a baby. I felt like I had come full circle because Dr. W. was the first Dr. I saw after my diagnoses. I remember how scared I was, he made me feel comfortable, and I knew he would do everything he could do to help me. Then to see him on my last day of radiation and to tell me I've done well; it just felt so surreal. So as I said I cried all the way home.

I have so many emotions. As I have thought about my cancer, it makes me also think about my testimony/beliefs. It's my testimony that before this earth life we were in heaven together, happy, willing to come to earth and accept the joys/challenges that come with it. I think of some of you, how righteous and strong you are, and must have been. And still are even if you don't think you are. I don't believe are trials were given to us randomly. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that each of us have a divine purpose/plan and God will help us accomplish that plan whatever that is.

No Regrets,

Happy 4TH Of July !

I just have a few thoughts I would like to share.

I just got back from walking. While walking two women passed me. I thought to myself "boy they are walking fast, am I that slow and out of shape?'. I kept walking, we met again and they were still cruising, self defeating thoughts came to my mind about how out of shape I am. I then l looked at myself and I wondered if they noticed how I was walking? On my right side, my foot to my knee was completely numb and I was concentrating on walking right so I wouldn't trip. On my left side I had my elbow bent and stuck out so my arm couldn't touch my side. I am so burned from radiation that from collar bone to the middle of my chest and under my arm pit is a deep red and purplish color. So uncomfortable. Anyway as they passed me and said they just completed their last lap, I said to myself oh my heck they lapped me, BUT as I felt the pains in my body and looked at myself walking funny, I started walking my last lap with a smile on my face and thinking I am at least walking it beats laying on my bed or bathroom floor.

Don't compare yourself!

This past weekend was the 4Th. I hope you all had a good time celebrating. I love the 4th. I was looking up information on our founding fathers for my family home evening lesson. As I was reading different articles I found info. on how Columbus believed in God and how he prayed to him, I then went on to find stories about George Washington and his belief in pray and how he received answers from God. Then Abe Lincoln relying on guidance through pray from God and so forth.

I then looked at are government and thought if only they would all PRAY to God and ASK for guidance and then LISTEN to his answers and then FOLLOW them, I think I would feel much safer in whats going on in the world. I then thought of us "We the People". How important it is to us that we study and find info. about the people running and then........... get down on are knees and ask for direction and guidance regarding them.

I know my thoughts aren't to deep and insightful but I guess it made me sad after studying and thinking about how the early Presidents truely believed and relied on God to now, if they do believe in God they don't dare say it.

President Monson said "A man stands tallest when upon his knees".

Love this quote!

I just have a few more days left for radiation. I am so excited I may be shouting from the rooftops that I am done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!